Afraid of Death?

 

Naiwen

Member
I'm more afraid of living than dying because I've had a major suicidal depression and self-harming thoughts and feelings before. Life has been feeling like a drag, a burden to even wake up and breath. When life seems as hard, though, or difficult, like a bottomless pit of despair, misery and suffering, you'll want to end it in a flash instant. That's how I've been feeling about 8-9 years ago for about 6 months myself and I have even attempted suicide and self-harm many times before at 24-25 years old, hating on my human nature, hating on everything about myself and my own current life and humanity. I'm scared of changes and unpredictability, loving more stability, calm and peace more than anything else. Hence why except for a walk, meditation and yoga outside my private lane by my home, I haven't talked to anyone else irl except online.
 
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PGen98

I, Am I?
Community Leader
I'm not afraid of dying, but I would be lying if I said I wasn't afraid of how I died. I don't want a slow, torturous death, or a grizzly painful death, I'd like to just pass away instantly or pass away in my sleep, but actual death, no, I'm not scared of that.

I have issues with depression, despair, hopelessness and I've had suicidal thoughts and even attempts in my life, so I know what it's like to be, not just at the edge, but hanging off of it. To be so close to ending it all, wherein nothing matters, nothing seems important, everything feels like it's going against you. I've been there, I've been that far down. So no, the prospect of death does not phase me in the least, because I've embraced it so many times in my life already.
 
I'm afraid of dying a painful death but not afraid of dying in general. Death itself isn't scary to me, what is scary is dying alone, in a fire, or drowning.
 

Ash

Active User
Just like Crimson, I would be worried about a very painful death. I'm not scared of dying at all really. It's something that happens to everyone and it's not exactly something you can avoid.
 

vans

New Comer
Well, it's not really a thing that I stopped and think it through. As some stated painful death would be horrible.
 
I am not afraid of death as much as I am afraid of suffering. I think this is one of the biggest reasons I have health anxiety. I worry and panic about facing a time where I will suffer for months or even years.
 
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